Dear Experiment

Dear Experiment, I have dreamt many times about this opportunity. I would always dream that it would take place at our favorite restaurant. I would always come in looking jawn dropping (per usual), you compliment me and I just smirk. You think it’s a good thing, well little do you know just what’s in store for you.  It seems as if you are being friendly, not being genuine but because you want something. Let me guess you want what we had? Well jokes on you,...

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Rebirth

The Journey of Healing It’s been a while. Everyone needs time to heal, and it’s okay. Everyone needs time to grow from hardship or hard shit. Its Spring, and although the world is going through it, you don’t have to. This is the time to focus on you. Focus on the things you wished you had more time in the day to do. All the things you’ve always wanted to do but never had the time. Open that business, go back to school, work on...

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Find Yourself

Hey you! Look at you! You look terrific and glowing from the happiness you are striving in.  You look refreshed and full of brightness. What has changed? Was it the moment where you realized that you have all the power in the world to make a difference. I do not mean, make a difference in THE world but a difference in YOUR world—the world you have ultimate control over. You have the power and chose not to give it to the wrong people. I am...

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Dear Me,

Dear Me, I want to start by saying I am sorry. Before we get too ahead of ourselves on this journey of healing. I want to take the time out to apologize. Me to me, I want you to know that I am sorry. I am sorry for the extreme roller coaster of emotions. I am sorry for being physically vulnerable but not mentally vulnerable. I am sorry for not trusting your instinct but trusting it only enough to keep you in my pocket and...

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Hard Goodbyes…

Here we go. Times like this, we tend to forget that there are unfortunate outcomes. We may live in the moment and forget, or we are too high off of the blindside of love. Either way, sometimes, it comes unexpectedly. If you listen to your gut, in the beginning, it tells you its all a bad idea. Therefore, you knew. You knew the whole time that it would be toxic. Yet, you were just so curious and went for that ride. Even if you knew...

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Breaking the Cycle

I thought about this for about a week or so. I wanted to share this because it is honestly mind-blowing. When I first heard it from my therapist, “I felt that.” Till the point, I was bawling my eyes out.   This post isn’t just for parents. This post is for people in general — my whole life, I have done something that has never been a good habit for me. Honestly, I do not see it as a good habit for anyone.  Since I can...

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Goodbye 2019

I know it can be a bit cliche to say; however, 2019 is coming to an end. It is time to say goodbye. This year was incredible, even through the ups and downs. Some of the best memories were becoming a mother and graduating with a Masters. Yet, let’s not forget the small moments that we sometimes take for granted. Each day, waking up to experiences, my daughter learns something new — the moments where I do feel good at times. As the year ends,...

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2016…

This blog post is one of the hardest. This post requires patience, understanding, and open-mindedness.  2016 was the year. I hit rock bottom.  I was reflecting on the year of 2016. I went through so much. I had mental breakdowns frequently on a day to day basis, even at my job at the time. I developed chronic migraines and also went to talk therapy. You may be thinking, doesn’t sound that bad. If only you knew how hard it was to do the simplest of...

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Where it all Began…

There was a point in my life where I was not as much of an Introvert. I used to hang out with friends; I would live my life to the fullest with no fears. However, during those times, I was also smoking and drinking a lot. Not to mention that I was dealing with anxiety and severe depression. When it came to mental illness, I never had the best coping skills. Instead of talking to someone, I would either isolate myself or party a lot....

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Starting Fresh

Welcome to my revised blog. I would say, this is a more mature audience-driven place just to read some shit. Yet, in all honesty, learn some stuff with me as I share my journey as a Fucktional Introvert.  I decided to name my blog Fucktional Introvert because I am a Fucking Functional Introvert. The title speaks for it’self. I have social anxiety. I am the type of person who prefers to stay most of the time. If someone invited me somewhere and I say “Yes’ that’s because...

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